i'm all by my self, and i'll be alone for some time, i stand up and go into my room, i barely turn on the lights so there is not that much light, i sit down on my bed and just look around my self and think; why, why, why is life so hard, why is it so hard to be a live, why am i a live.
then all of a sudden i get surrounded by dark thoughts, i start thinking why, why am here, is there a purpose for life, is there a purpose for any thing, just any thing, i start getting depressed, i start feeling numb, my emotions start fading away from me, i start feeling nothing, nothing at all, i feel nothing towards life, i start thinking with my self; mayb